He Owns Me.

Matthew 10:33:

“Whoever disowns me before others, I will disown before my Father in heaven.”

When I was maybe 10 years old I was really shy, and really afraid of what others might think of me. One day I was skipping rope with a friend of mine and a boy quite a lot bigger than I asked me if I was a Christian. I knew that this boy wasn’t, and to be honest, he scared me a little. This memory has always plagued me. Sometimes I would reason with it, “I never said I wasn’t a Christian.” But I also never said I was. I didn’t lie with my mouth, but I dodged the truth, I’d been given an opportunity to proclaim my faith, and I basically said “What’s it to you?”

I recently read the book “Jesus Freaks” containing of story after story of men, women, and children, imprisoned, tortured, and martyred for their faith in Jesus Christ. At first it seems a little be extreme, a little radical. But aren’t we asked to do the same thing? Jesus gave his life for us as a perfect payment, but he’s still asking for all our imperfections in order to perfect us.

Peter denied Christ 3 times, Christ redeemed him 3 times. Peter was later on, martyred for his faith, he asked to be crucified upside down because he believed he should suffer more than his savior. Peter was radical. He wasn’t half way in for Jesus. Jesus owned him.

It sounds extreme, but isn’t that what Jesus asked us to do? The Church in America isn’t facing persecution from the government, I’m not going to be thrown in jail for preaching, holding a service, or talking about Jesus. Peter died for Christ on a cross. I doubt any of us will be crucified for our faith, in fact, most of us probably don’t face a whole lot of persecution for our faith. That doesn’t mean being a Christian will be easy. Jesus is asking each of us, every day to deny our own lives and to follow him.

One day a religious man approached Jesus and was talking to him. He had kept all the commandments since he was young, he was a go to church every sunday kind of guy

“Jesus looked at him and loved him. “One thing you lack,” he said. “Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.” At this the man’s face fell. He went away sad, because he had great wealth.” -Mark 10:21-22

When we choose to follow Jesus, we’re surrendering to him. He paid our price. We cannot earn his love, but that doesn’t mean that he doesn’t deserve everything we have. He’s the God of the Universe, our things and our lives are not our own. The man Jesus spoke to had great wealth, and he valued it more than life with Jesus. What do we have that we value more than Jesus? What are we not willing to give him?

Maybe you’ve never denied Christ when someone asked you. But maybe like me, you never said “Christ owns me.” You never gave an answer specifically. We live like that a lot of the time, not just with our words, but with our actions. Nothing about that really sticks out, we’re not off committing bloody huge sins, our sins are much more inward, small things like pride, or valuing our money too much, or our jobs too much, or even our lives. Or maybe it’s even less than that, perhaps God is calling you to something but you don’t want to call that much attention to yourself as a Christian. You’re not telling people you don’t believe, but you’re not following into that belief.

If you were the religious man Jesus was talking to today, what would he ask you to do? Sell everything you own? Give up your job? Like Abraham, sacrifice your only son?

God sacrificed his only son for you. Not to guilt you into anything, He just loved you that much, he gave up everything for you. You’re the jewel he really wants. One of my favorite songs says, “There is a love as strong as death, with jealousy demanding as the grave.” God is so jealous when you give yourself to something that is not him. Maybe you haven’t disowned him, but you’re also not letting him own you.

Today I want to be reconciled. Today I want to say with my mouth and with my actions that Jesus Christ OWNS me.

–striving to be zealous for a jealous God (and thankful for the immense grace because he knows all I can do is try),



35 Miles

I recently read a story about a boy who became a Christian and learned that someone had a Bible in a town nearby. He wanted to read the Word of God, so he began walking.

35 miles.

He was willing, more than willing, he desired, to walk 35 miles just to see a Bible, just to hold it in his hands. He hungered for the word of God.

How often do you read your Bible? Once a day? Once a week? I wonder if I would be willing to walk 35 miles to see a Bible. Truth is, I know for a fact that we have at least 15 Bibles in my house. There are hundreds of Bibles in my church. We set them out on each chair, and pick them up after service, and some of them look like they have never been opened.

We have scripture in our hands, the Word of an Infinite God, and we don’t open the pages. We don’t act like we need it. Who are we fooling? The boy who walked 35 miles, finally got a Bible of his own (which no doubt cost him quite a lot). He was later imprisoned for owning the Bible.

Mark 8:36 “What good is it for man to gain the world, if he loses his soul?”

Everyone has to be willing to walk their own 35 miles, to sell what they own, to take up their cross, to follow Christ.

I Am a C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N

And I have have C-H-R-I-S-T in my H-E-A-R-T and I will L-I-V-E E-T-E-R-N-A-L-L-Y. . .

If this song reminds you of VBS and Children’s Church and sing-a-longs on VHS, you will most likely understand this blog. I’ve been meaning to begin a blog for quite some time now, in fact, I’ve begun a number of blogs, I just never bothered to really use them. For the past few years I’ve been using the notes app on facebook to share my “sermons.”

Without further ado, let me introduce myself: My name is Merry. I have just completed my freshman year of college at Bluegrass Community and Technical College with the intention of transferring all the way across the street to the University of Kentucky.  I began college as a social work major, I’m now pursuing a degree in Integrated Communications with a focus in Public Relations and a double major in Economics. I’ve also toyed around with the idea of English.

You get the picture, I’m another one of those young people who don’t know what to do with their lives.

I’m a homeschool graduate from a family of 6, oldest child of 4. I’ve been a regular church goer for 19 years and 5 and a half months. And I was raised in a Southern Baptist church. Currently my family and I are in the market for a new church. Which is how I got the idea for this blog. I intend to document this church hunt each week as we visit a new church every sunday.

I’m not really a planner, but I hope to discuss Church life, theology, and the Christian faith. I will also post some of devotionals and “sermons” that I write and journal that are sometimes more like preaching and sometimes more like confessions.